Pangs

Something's wrong. I'm putting on a brave face, which is not exceptionally difficult, as most stuff seems to be all right or even more than all right, but... But I'm having a hard time for some reason.

As though I'd misjudged things in the past, as if I'd made some obvious mistakes that are kicking in just now. I'm not sure what is happening, but the sudden pangs I'm having are not exactly nice.

I'm almost on the edge of making decisions which I deep down feel I might regret. It's like keeping a nasty beast on a very thin leash.

I am not happy.